RUNNING AWAY

[tavalon]

5. Whoops, didn't know the terminology

And oh, howdy, did you ever pinpoint the hazard!

Based on what you say here, I can wholeheartedly stand by "geographicals don't work". Luckily, in the case I spoke of, I did the smart thing. Stayed unattached for quite a long time. And learned about the types I needed to avoid, and who they represented within my family of origin and did the work, work, work. And while the person in question inadvertently messed with me, I was fully responsible for my behavior. I don't think I was somewhat to blame, I believe it was fully my problem.

So, yeah, distance was my Curad, while I worked on the cure. (Hah, I've never been able to use Curad in a sentence. Where is my residual?)

As an interesting aside, I've always thought I carried the "addiction" gene, but I'm not so sure now. I tried with all my heart in the last seven weeks to find a numbing drug and I couldn't do it. Each time I came up for air, I was gut punched yet again. Now, admittedly, it wasn't an exhaustive search but it was exhausting. And I'm done with it. Facing the problem, the terror, once a day is quite enough.