Massive car problems hit us, costing WAY more to fix than what we have on hand. Thursday was the day when self doubt and regrets bubbled over and the net result was a huge self examination of what I am doing and why I'm doing it. I hit meltdown point and began to feel that I had put my family in a really percarious financial situation due to my own ambitions.
By Friday things had come round to the point that I've pulled my socks up and moved on. The car repairs were negotiated down to a manageable level, and with that resolution came the realization that I honestly am blessed because nobody I love is dead, dying, or laying in an ICU unit. What I am doing is no cause for "guilt" because I am honestly working to get ahead and make life better for my entire family, not just myself. Some sacrifice is involved, but it really is manageable, and it is only a temporary thing that will pass within the next couple years.
Friday evening we attended the local NAACP dinner and we were surrounded by friends and like minded people. What a huge boost that was! (I cannot begin to explain what a comfort my online friends and my "in person" friends have been! I love you all!) The keynote speaker had a main theme that "one day is today, and today is right now." Dr King spoke of "one day" and it really is too easy to sit and wait for "one day" to come--instead of getting out there and working to make "one day" a reality. It really doesn't matter what your issue is--stand up and act NOW!
As for the meltdown of the Komen foundation, I truely am sorry for all the women who may face a reduction in access to health care as a result of their actions. Make no mistake, in spite of the capitulation, there will still be women doing without, and programs that we all need will be left unfunded. Komen Foundation has done a lot to bring the issue of breast cancer to the front of people's minds--even if it is a sanitized version of reality--and even if it has been flawed by politics. Much as I dislike what they just did, I have got to celebrate anything and anybody that can mobilize people to action. I can only hope that people will not abandon the lesson taught about being personally involved. Remember, "One day is today, and today is RIGHT NOW!"
Peace to you all!
Laura
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